suffering #Day 2

I'm continue suffering...
Today continue got some shit happen to me. 
Should I say I having really really fucking suck bf?
Yes, I do! He is fucking suck!


Today I epic tired still I accompany him for movie and shopping.
After I reached ioi, I forget to take down my student card and went back to the car took.
He also able to nag me said why I like never prepare before I went down?
How about you? You forget to take your fucking parking ticket did I say anything?
Just forget to take also need to fucking said a lot of thing?


When movie time,
I wanted to buy hotdog but you said why I always want something which is expensive?
I just want to tell you that the fucking hotdog it just cost RM2.80, u can't pay, I PAY!
And stop nagging me I always spend money like water. 
I know how to save, I know how to earn, I know the faster way to get money.


How many times I been asking you acc me go genting?
Right now your step sister ask you go, you only ask me to go?
Right now your step sister ask you to go then you only wanted to go?
Why I ask you to go you sure got a lot of bullshit reason to tell me?
Why now your attitude like jon?

Why you so freaking funny?
Why you always telling me my ex stuff? Do I intend to know? His thing I really no interesting to know
Why cant you spend your time and do your assignment or report?
Is it this is more important than your future or your study?


I have nothing much more to say.
Cry is the way for me to release.
Hope everything will be alright.

suffering

I'm suffering right now.
Every night stay in the room and start crying
Am I too stress? Or I think too much?
How come my emo mood will come back to me?
I feel like can't handle myself


Now I only realize I use to be alone.
Actually I have much more thing to be busy and care
I regret take this relationship. He never even stand on my situation and think.
He just know how to take revenge on people.
He really selfish, just because small matter and he will be quarrel with me.
When he told me that in his heart, he only love me.
From that time I start to feel afraid and worry
I dont want this kind of promise. If you cant do it, dont promise
you have to know. I'm no more secure on relationship.
I dont know how to remain. I dont know how to express my feeling out.
If I tell you how would you feel? You will be sad over there.
Everyone is under stress. Not only you.
I'm giving up.......
I really dont know how long more I could stand for it
I wonder why my party you wanted to invited him.
I not ready to face him
In front of you I must be perfect, never make mistake.
You also will wearing mask to treat people and show to people how sweet and how lovely we all.
But while between both of us?
Did you even treat me so lovely and sweetly?
You only know how to show your face to me.
Dont take revenge anymore. It will hurt any one of them.
I very easy to satisfy if you treat me with your real heart.
I can feel it. But now everything is changed

EVERYTHING IS JUST A DREAM

RELATIONSHIP IS JUST LIKE A GLASS, ONCE YOU DROP DOWN, EVERYTHING WILL BE BREAK INTO PIECES. HOW YOU STICK BACK IT WON'T BE PERFECT AS LAST TIME

------------------------------------------Our relationship is going to the end-------------------------------------------------------

goodbye~

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Happy Birthday to myself

Ahaha, Awesome birthday day for myself.
Cause what? Hehehe~
Someone really made my day!! :)

Okey let's tell you the story.

That day before he came back from ipoh,

me and him argue again. I duno he sengaja or what.

So whole day also didn't call me and find me also.

In the end, I couldn't take it anymore.
I called him and have a talk with him.

End up, he said bring me out celebrate. :))
I request go sunway because of the bubble tea chat time

Hehe, long queue for 30 min end up I get what I want :)

Winter melon with bubble 

After that, we went back to Puchong.

He sent me to IOI to get ticket and he said need to meet someone~
YERR!!!!
WHY LEAVE ME ALONE?!

But at IOI I bought 2 skirt and one T-shirt :)

Then he brang me to Wing's cafe.
At first he turn into Puteri.
Den I asked him is it going Wing's cafe?

He said nope. He said he wanted to go bank withdrawal the money out.

End up he still drive me to wing's cafe. Hehe

He reserved a place over there, infront the stage.
Eeer details I dont want say la.

But out of sudden, suddenly somebody sang birthday songs, I thought is mine, but then cheh! 

Not even mine also!

Then second time, he suddenly stand on the stage,

and he solo sang Happy Birthday songs to me. :)

Wee Wee!!

After sang, he also sang Right here waiting for you to me.

Want see the videos, ask from me. :)

After he sang, everyone clap hand for him and me.

And FINALLY!! The cake came to me!!

cut cake time =)

Btw, didn't take much pictures.

On that day, I really enjoy the night with him.

He is the first guy who sang for me on the stage infront of so many people.

I know that we always argue and quarrel

but then, we both still remain the same :)

I love you.

♥  

And thanks to everyone who wishes me in facebook, message me, call me!

Appreciate a lot

♥

enjoyment week

I'm excited! I'm happy!

I suppose in emo mood.

This few weeks been stress up just because of working, study, exam,relationship and etc

Right now, I'm sick. =(

Maybe not get enuf sleep?

Or maybe ate too much barbecue stuff?

Yet still i'm freaking H.A.P.P.Y!

WHY?

CAUSE I WENT TO PORT DICKSON!!!!

After argue with him, I was resting in house.

Suddenly he called me and asked me do I want to follow him go PD with BLM members?

Of course follow laa~

U know what? 

While I reach there just need 1 hour. Guess how fast the BLM members drive?

150km/s include girls plus 7 car's went to PD
*Take notes* All are malay except me and him is chinese! But they are friendly :)

After reach there, PD start raining

And I was surprising they doing BBQ middle of the night. 

This is my first time eat BBQ middle of the night == 

They BBQ-ing under raining condition

*Cause of raining, I didn't take more pictures plus I not close with them*

After BBQ, We all over night in the car.
My ever 1st time overnight in the car and at beach
Is epic relax!

After wake up, take some picture with my precious dear

Morning kiss for him ♥

After we went to beach and enjoy hugging over there.

Eh sorry, cut the crap

After that, me and the BLM member suggest go sit the banana boat

I tell you, if you didn't seat before,better try it

Is AWESOME AND FUN!

*Never take picture again. Aisk!*

I tell you, even though you dont know how to swim, you also can go try

Cause I'm the only one dont know how to swim

HEHEHEHE

So this is the group member of BLM

Pretty Girls

Handsome Boys :D

Epic perfect! (Y)

♥

Ohya, bubu bought one camera for me :)
That day after dinner randomly I wanted to see and research some camera and consider the price.
But bubu suddenly said wanted buy for me.

Hooray, epic happy-ing! ♥

Here the camera :)

The end :)

End with happiness ♥